My finger has been shaking as I hovered over the publish button for weeks since first recording this video. To be honest, I’ve been deathly afraid of the reaction I’d get -the possible side-eyes I’d receive from friends who have sense seen me drink and the overall judgement that I would even need to question my relationship with alcohol. But regardless of my fears I had to remind myself that my journey no matter how rocky, is valid and worth sharing. Plus, we don’t exist in black and white, we are colorful beings who aren’t just one thing, and as we have new experiences we gain new insights. With that said these are the insights I gained when in I became sober curious.