I read something recently that helped me make one of the hardest decisions in my life “The idea of fearlessness is a false concept that is imposed by spectators. True performers feel fear and experience suffering. However, they learned to settle-into it like a yoga stretch.”
I’d been comfortable in my role as a Training Specialist at The Children’s Hospital for 3 years. I worked with great colleagues that I’d considered friends, made a comfortable living that allowed me to devote time to other passions, I was comfortable with the work load, however, not entirely passionate about the day-to-day. But I knew that what I was doing had a greater purpose in helping to give children the healthcare that they deserved. With that said, I just didn’t feel quite fulfilled. For one, my commute was killing me, and while I knew I was working for the greater good, the content that I was teaching just didn’t fulfill me. So when a recruiter called me to tell me about an exciting position for a new company I thought why not hear her out. What happened next changed the trajectory of my career…
The position would be the first on a training team at an organization that provides learning and classroom materials for grades K-6. The title itself “Senior Training Specialist” was one higher than I’d ever been given. That and the fact that I’d possibly be able to help mold and shape a team from the ground up was enough to make me truly give leaving my current comfy position some serious thought.
So I came in for the interview. Not to toot my own horn but I’m really good at interviews, and I don’t just mean telling the interviewer what they’d like to hear. I mean I’m good at understanding the company and knowing if it’s the right fit for me AND them. I can tell right away what I can expect from the company culture simply by sitting in the lobby. Maybe its years of experience or having taken jobs that I knew from the start weren’t a right fit and looking back noticing the signs I’d clearly dismissed, later. But I knew when I sat down for my first round of interviews with this new company that if I got hired, leaving my cushy job would change my career forever.
So when that call came in, telling me that they were interested I did what I usually do when I have to make a tough decision. I consulted my village. You know the people whose opinions matter most to you because they’re usually very sound. For me that’s a whole LOT of people. So after consulting my village and everyone telling me to take it, I realized I needed to be comfortable with my decision at the end of the day. So I did what I encourage anyone to do when they have to make a tough life decision I weighed the pros and cons. Yeah it’s a bit archaic, but it works.
So I did my list and the only con that I could find with this new position was that I was afraid of it. Afraid of leaving something I was so comfortable at, afraid of being the first on a team and not being smart enough to forge the road ahead alone. At the end of the day all roads led back to my fear, and I realized then that was the exact reason why I had to take the position.
So I handed in my resignation, packed up my Hyundai Tucson (yes remember I’m still reviewing a car in this post 😉 and bid farewell to a wonderful organization and a lovely group of people in favor of growth and a better lifestyle.
I’ve resigned from positions before, but this felt different for some reason. After reflection, I think it all boils down to knowing that this next stage in my life will require me to be the best version of myself. I will have to step up and take the over 11 years of experience that I have in my career and apply it. This will test my knowledge and my resolve, it will also call for me to juggle all of my other interests while still working in a field that I am good at for my livelihood. To put it frankly I am going to have to come WITH IT!
Thank God that through this whole process I rode around in what has to be the most sporty, yet comfy car to drive.
I usually take the train into work, but I’d just come to my wit’s end with that whole thing. Between the sketchy neighborhoods and people I just didn’t want to deal with public transit on what would be my last two weeks at work. Thank God for the Hyundai Tucson! It felt so good to ride in comfort with satellite radio, an amazing sound system, dual AC controls and navigation that got me around all that LA traffic.
On top of that, because parking is atrocious in Hollywood the Tucson was small enough to fit in some small spaces. It’s funny how a truck can be both small yet have a lot of space because this one had a lot to haul when I cleaned my desk out of almost 3 years of memories.
Here are some other great features of the car
- Great price! Starting at just $22,000
- Blind Spot Detection
- Rear Cross Traffic Alert
- Rearview Camera
- Rear Parking Sensors
- Remote Keyless Entry With Alarm
- Proximity Key entry with push button start
- Panoramic tilt-and-slide sunroof
- Heated rear seats
- Ventilated and Heated Front Seats
- Bluetooth® hands-free phone system
- Steering-wheel-mounted audio, Bluetooth® and cruise controls
and those were just the things I noticed!
I’d like to thank everyone at Hyundai for allowing me a week in the Tucson. With all of the tough decisions I had to make that week it was nice knowing that one of them would not be how I would get around town that week.